At this point this post isn't going to be looked at by the littlest of souls except from the one person that monitors post from the Blogspot HQ. My summer was going great, little on my mind except videogames and friends. Then I was hit with difficult news about a close friend of mine who had died of drugs. Second person in my life to pass away this year that was at the very least a decent human being. This man was going to do awesome things. I can't help but to reflect on the morning of the reception of such news. I am devastated at how someone can essentially disappear from my life not by choice but by incident. I thought life would be a fairytale of good fortune with occasional problems. Then my senior year hit me like a train. The years of the teenager are difficult, the transition from the ugly little duckling to the eventual swan is discouraging. Nothing seems to help me move along. I thought not attending the service for Aaron would help me overcome but it didn't. My mind clouded by my stupidity and oblivious to the occurrence of such tragedy prohibited me from listening to my friends. I should have checked on my friends to see how they were especially the more affected ones. As time quickly progresses nearer to my own demise, I take note of the day I must leave the nest and hopefully become the swan I want to be but I can't help but to remember my good times with Aaron. We mourned the death of a smile and we made others smile in a class shrouded by numbers and symbols with a short monotone teacher with an odd obsession with three girls. Aaron became my nerd buddy we shared the same love for creativity and science. We shared a yearning to change the world. I know that it is no longer required for my ex classmates to glance over my blog and this is a post that will not be seen by many but I feel the necessity to release the words trapped in the folds of my brain and the passages of my neurons. Aaron you will be missed by the few who truly knew you. As I type this with a tear drop on my the LED screen of my phone I struggle to finish typing this post...
Ephraim's Galaxy of Information
Thursday, July 30, 2015
Monday, June 8, 2015
Bildungs Roman
6/8/15
This last couple of weeks have been a tremendous experience for all of the classes partaking in AP Literature and Composition. Many of these prestigious students learned the deep thoughts rolling through the skulls of their peers. Some were frightened by the gravity of their ideas, others were in agreement. This course has been open in many ways as students from a traditional setting we were free, and in some ways a bit too free. Some students took lightly to the course and I not being exempt. One way or another everyone took a shortcut. As students we find the easy way out so we have less stress to deal with. I think this course deserves a little more consequence so students are less tempted to goof off.
Saturday, May 23, 2015
Peer Pressure
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
I swear...
My mind works better under stress
My mind works better in fear
My mind works better with a beat to follow
My mind works better in the absence of voice
My mind works better when directed by myself
My mind works better behind the glowing pixels of this LED panel
My mind works better when stimulated by caffeine
My mind works better when my sanity is nowhere to be found
My mind works better when it is gone.
My mind doesn't work at all...
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
...
Sometimes you don't know the complete story. Sometimes most of the variables are missing. Sometimes a person may not really be who you think they are. Sometimes a person may have lived a life totally different than what you imagined. Sometimes you will never understand me. Sometimes nobody will. Sometimes I have felt life to be unbearably difficult. Pressure is what makes a beautiful diamond right? No pressure is what makes the cracked graphite at the bottom of the cave. My struggle is one you may never understand. My music is one you may never like. My qualities are some that may or may not enjoy. What is the point sometimes? Sometimes I may seem erroneous.
This was written because my last few weeks have felt somewhat difficult in all aspects. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. AP tests aren't even stressing me out all that much, just a combination of a variety things.
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Feeling
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
What about in-class stuff, yo?
What about the time invested inside the classroom?
It's the same five or six people that participate the others sit around and do nothing. The same people I see who are constantly commended for their "EXCELLENT" work on their blog are the ones snapchatting, texting, talking our doing some other useless thing that doesn't pertain to the in-class agenda. A blog that isn't reviewed nor given feedback to me is useless. Whereas an argument in class where I can see the opposing side's argument is much more influential and valuable. Enough with comparing each other's blogs and focus on what really matters the actual discussion in the FUCKING classroom. Where is the bracket for in-class discussion? I feel like I might make it to the Final Four.