Peer Pressure

No not the kind we trained to avoid in 5th grade... The kind we are trained to follow since birth. What irks me is the idea that it's okay to enforce societal values into a child. My Art project that might even be a month late due to my lack of prioritization, has subconsciously taught me a lot. The whole idea of things like religion being okay to teach to children is sad. Religion has its pros and cons but many people enforce the bad. I left a seemingly good faith because of this. What I felt like was a good part of my life turned out to be the most prejudiced and hateful. Be different, challenge what comes your way, be you. Don't let the bully enforce conformity.

I swear...

My mind works better into the night
My mind works better under stress
My mind works better in fear
My mind works better with a beat to follow
My mind works better in the absence of voice
My mind works better when directed by myself
My mind works better behind the glowing pixels of this LED panel
My mind works better when stimulated by caffeine
My mind works better when my sanity is nowhere to be found
My mind works better when it is gone.
My mind doesn't work at all...

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Sometimes you don't know the complete story. Sometimes most of the variables are missing. Sometimes a person may not really be who you think they are. Sometimes a person may have lived a life totally different than what you imagined. Sometimes you will never understand me. Sometimes nobody will. Sometimes I have felt life to be unbearably difficult. Pressure is what makes a beautiful diamond right? No pressure is what makes the cracked graphite at the bottom of the cave. My struggle is one you may never understand. My music is one you may never like. My qualities are some that may or may not enjoy. What is the point sometimes? Sometimes I may seem erroneous.

This was written because my last few weeks have felt somewhat difficult in all aspects. Physically, mentally, and  emotionally. AP tests aren't even stressing me out all that much, just a combination of a variety things.