A lost friend...

At this point this post isn't going to be looked at by the littlest of souls except from the one person that monitors post from the Blogspot HQ. My summer was going great, little on my mind except videogames and friends. Then I was hit with difficult news about a close friend of mine who had died of drugs. Second person in my life to pass away this year that was at the very least a decent human being. This man was going to do awesome things. I can't help but to reflect on the morning of the reception of such news. I am devastated at how someone can essentially disappear from my life not by choice but by incident. I thought life would be a fairytale of good fortune with occasional problems. Then my senior year hit me like a train. The years of the teenager are difficult, the transition from the ugly little duckling to the eventual swan is discouraging. Nothing seems to help me move along. I thought not attending the service for Aaron would help me overcome but it didn't. My mind clouded by my stupidity and oblivious to the occurrence of such tragedy prohibited me from listening to my friends. I should have checked on my friends to see how they were especially the more affected ones. As time quickly progresses nearer to my own demise, I take note of the day I must leave the nest and hopefully become the swan I want to be but I can't help but to remember my good times with Aaron. We mourned the death of a smile and we made others smile in a class shrouded by numbers and symbols with a short monotone teacher with an odd obsession with three girls. Aaron became my nerd buddy we shared the same love for creativity and science. We shared a yearning to change the world. I know that it is no longer required for my ex classmates to glance over my blog and this is a post that will not be seen by many but I feel the necessity to release the words trapped in the folds of my brain and the passages of my neurons. Aaron you will be missed by the few who truly knew you. As I type this with a tear drop on my the LED screen of my phone I struggle to finish typing this post...